Tuesday, 10 January 2012

Saying goodbye

January 10th, 2:20 AM

Oh boy, goodbyes are tough! I have officially said goodbye to my closest friends now that tonight is over, and I can happily say I don’t feel like I won’t ever see them again.

 I’ve had a lot of time to reflect since graduating about this and I am truly fortunate to have made some really incredible friendships over my life. I have some of the funniest and most caring people as my friends and we’ve seen each other through so much over the years that I really can’t imagine who I would be today without them.
I really think that a lot of my growing up happened because of whom I chose to remain close to.  I am really horribly sad to have to temporarily say goodbye to everyone but I figure my online addiction should keep us in touch fairly well.

More goodbyes, real goodbyes, are also in my future. My parents hope to sell our house (my childhood home, to get a little more dramatic), while I am away. I have a lot of memories from here, and I think part of why I am so sad is because I am fearing how much things will have changed for when I come back!

Right now I am lying in my beautiful bed, in the room I grew up in, thinking back on a lot of things I am going to miss. I will miss this bed a lot, but even more, I’ll miss the comfort this home provides. I am about to rip myself, willingly, from everything I’ve really known, all of this safety and comfort, to be alone in one of the world’s biggest cities.

I am crazy.

But, it’s been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember. And even though I leave in a day (!!!), and things are obviously becoming more real and terrifying and sad than I could have anticipated, I can’t let these emotions scare me off from trying! Change is scary and not fun in so many ways, but I also think it has to be embraced and when we do accept it, we become more interesting, if not better, people. Everyone knows I could use some exciting stories at least!

So in an effort to console me for when I am lonely and homesick as hell and wishing for the past while in London, I made a little video of home to look back on. I think it’ll be boring to anyone else but me, but I grabbed a few nice pictures and videos of some of my favourite places and people from home to keep me sane.

The next post I make will be from my new home city! Aaah!



  1. Yessss I made the video!!!

    Ahem - anyways...

    This blog will give me ample distraction while at work - therefore it is most excellent!

    Additionally, I also felt all sad shit before I moved to Toronto but you know what - you'll probably look at this video when you get back to Canada and go "WTH?!"

    But I guess moving to Toronto is not quite the same as moving to England.

    Everyone I know who has lived abroad says that it was the most important time of their life. They all claim they grew up, had the best of times and they fully endorse the experience for anyone with the guts to do it.

    CHANGE YOUR LIFE!!!! - so they claim

    I think it's good for you - you'll see/do sooo much. Maybe you'll even bring back some exotic man meat (LAWL!)

    Haven't you been talking about moving to England since....Castor Valley?!

    Bring me back something cool

  2. ps. I am going to use a corgi with a crown to comment - just to be "Englandy" ahaha